I'm exhausted

Because i've stopped being such a couch potato.  I have been pretty disgusted with my post-Brody body.  It's gross.  After giving birth Brenna, I weighed less than I did when I got pregnant.  I attribute that to serious morning sickness followed up by gestational diabetes.  I didn't really get to eat what I wanted to eat through the entire pregnancy.  And I am a person that loves food.

My pregnancy with Brody was different.  Not as bad morning sickness, and no GD.  So I ate, and ate, and ate.  I only gained 22 pounds with him, which is pretty normal so I figured it would be the same deal as Brenna.  WRONG.  I lost almost nothing when he was born.  Literally.  I may have lost his birth weight, which was a whopping 6 lbs and change).  I feel like I retained all the water weight and everything else.  So let's just say now, I am in the upper 100's and its not cool.  Especially because I am short so I show all my weight.

I've finally had enough.  Its going to be getting hot soon, the kids are going to want to play in the pool and I am going to have to wear a bathing suit.  I tried one on at Old Navy recently and there is no way I can subject other human beings to what I look like in a bathing suit right now.  Even a one piece.  So I started running again.  I ran track in high school (like for one season) but I haven't run in ages.  My friend Andrea (who you can visit here and who also has two of the cutest little girls ever) and I have decided we are going to just sign up for a 5k so that we have to train.  So far so good.  For both of us.  I haven't missed a day since Saturday.  That being said, my running is shameful.  It almost doesn't count as running.  But im working on it.  Im slowly working on my endurance and distance.  And I am trying not to worry about time for a good while.  Or possibly ever.  Even on my days off I try to go for at least a mile run/walk just to get in some movement.  And I am afraid that if I do skip a day, I won't start again.  Oh, and I have also not had any drink other than water (ok, and a coffee in the morning) for about 3 weeks.  So thats something.  I hope I can keep it up.  I already feel a lot better.  I hope it starts to show soon.

And some days, I get two pretty cute personal trainers...